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9:58 AM
Friday, May 21, 2010

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ouh anyway i am slowly recovering i guess.
so far this week i don't have any fever but got a very bad headache everyday though.
hopefully i can get well as soon as possible for i have lots and lots of work to do.
need to find 1 or 2 days to do some catching up.

gonna need to bounce back.

oh god, i am damn sleepy and hungry sia!

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i am officially lost in DATABASE MANAGEMENT SYSTEMS!

shitshitshitshitshitshitshitshitshitshitshitshitshitshitshitshit!!

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7:54 PM
Sunday, May 16, 2010

this is gonna be a new beginning for Muhammad Yazid Bin Haji Gazali.

all this problems could only stop me from enjoying my life to the fullest.
and i am gonna fight till the very end to turn my life around.
i am not gonna sit down and let all this challenges that god gave me stop me from achieving the best in me.
for the past few weeks, i have been suffering inside out.
at times i feel like ending my life to end this suffering.
but i won't.

is it bad luck?
maybe.
i feel like i am having an endless string of bad luck.
people close to me should know.
well i can't change luck.
but i really really hope all this bad luck is just a sign to much better luck in the future.

or is it karma?
definitely.
i am very sure this is god punishment for all my wrong doings in the past.
i did too many sin.
i don't pray to god,
i drink,
i tried illegal stuffs,
i steal,
and the list goes on..
i enjoy my life during those time.
just imagine, in just seconds, i can get 3 digit cash.
spending them happily without realizing the consequences.
and now, serve you right Mr Caddy.
well, what goes around, comes around.
one moment you are sky high, the next moment you are down looking up to the sky.
karma boy, karma.

whatever it may be, bad luck or karma, i don't fucking care.
i ain't giving up.
god don't give us challenges that we can't overcome.
i am sure there's a way to change everything.
and i am gonna find it no matter what.

having this kind of sickness is very fucked up.
have you people ever feel how its like to wake feeling so weak,
then you have to go to school,
trying your best to focus but its really tough to do so,
then by the time you end class,
you start to feel very sick,
and the moment you step home you start to have fever,
you lay down, covering yourself with a blanket, shivering,
all you can do is think why all this problems is happening to you,
you can't even do you assignments and it's piling up,
then you'll try with all your might to get up and take your medicine,
and even after that you can't even sleep,
your fever gets better around midnight or later than that,
by the time you start to have a little extra energy,
it is too late to even do you work,
you'll fall asleep.
and this cycle goes on every single day.
have you?
well i have.

my life seem to skid of the track and i know there is a lot of work to do just to get it back on the right track.
well that is what i have to do now.
gonna be strong to endure all the problems.

ya allah, ampunkan lah dosa-dosa hamba mu ini.
berikan lah aku kekuatan untuk tempuhi segala dugaanmu ini.
dan jadikan lah hamba mu yang lemah ini seorang yang beriman, berjaya dan jadikan ku seorang anak yang soleh dan taat pada agama.
amin.

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it all started from the training they went through together.
she was like any other girl he met.
but on that day when they had to practice the dance,
everything started to change.
her cute and sweet character caught his attention.
he made the first move by asking to be his partner.
he simply love the way she act.

during a short break,
she came beside him and started to talk to him.
though it's the first time they actually talk,
she just sat there and keep on talking.
as if they had knew each other for long.
sharing her stories.
he just sat there and listen to her.
he realize just how adorable she is.
he started to get comfortable being with her.

as time goes on,
he start to developed feeling for her.
but he never really show her.
they text each other almost every night.
sharing stories each time they text.
one day,
their friends saw how close these two were.
but everyone knew except them.

slowly, they got even closer.
both know that they have feeling for one another,
but he just don't know how to tell her.
then came the main event.
both were busy with their own tasks.
and despite the problems he face during the event,
he still think about her.

and days after the event,
he finally got his answer.
both admit their feelings to each other.
weeks after they got tot know one another,
they finally got together as a couple.

everything seems fine as both of them kicks off they love journey.
they seem very compatible with one another.
they solved their problems together.
but what they didn't know is that there's a bigger waves coming.
more and more problems came by.
hitting them harder each time.

it all started when he got sick.
and his illness just won't go away.
he got weaker each day.
he wanted to spent time with her,
but he just can't.
then,
another problem hit him real hard.
he started to have financial problems.
due to his illness,
he wasn't able to work like he normally did.
this problem also cause him to drift apart from her.
he was tried to spent time with her whenever he can.
but he felt useless as he don't have enough cash to have lunch with her,
go out with her and spent time with her.
he know things would get better once he recover.
and when that happen,
he can get his life back to how it was before.

sadly, it didn't.
they started to drift apart.
as there's always something that stop him from contacting her.
she start to assume things.
her text messages start to hurt him.
she say she understand him and will stay by him despite the problems he is facing.
but the reality is,
she just don't.
she felt hurt by his actions.
she felt he was ignoring her.
not knowing that she was always in his mind.
as he lay sick,
he could only read the messages from her and cry.

then the worst thing happen.
she ask for a break up.
he was so sick and ask her to give him time.
yet she insist on ending it.
she just don't understand.
but he know it wasn't her fault.
it's her first and she might not know what to expect.
she wasn't the girl he knew weeks before.

she have given up on him.
so much for wanting to be with him despite the problems.
but despite that,
he tried his best to get her back.
he try to be there for her,
he text her every night.
but slowly he realize that she just won't come back.
her reply tells everything.
for days,
he never get to read the i love you too line she use to say.
she just ignore all those things.
did she know just how much it means to him?

there's a saying,
it takes two hands to clap.
but now there's only one hand.
his weak hand is the only one left.
he felt the love is gone.
she's just not interested.
now,
went he sat on the train,
he would think of the train rides they use to take.
and how he would put his head on hers and sleep.
sometimes, he hope she would appear right before him.
and sleep in his arm throughout the journey back.
and at times,
when he fall sick,
he hope she would come and give him a hug.
but deep inside,
he knows none of it will ever happen.

well,
in reality,
there can never be a fairytale ending.
the sweet start ends just like that.
he knows,
they are just not made for one another.

Lee Jialing, may you have a better life after this.
I wish the best for you.
Be happy always and stay sweet,
For that's one of the reason that made me fall for you.

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11:14 AM
Wednesday, November 04, 2009

hey!

for the first time in 3 weeks.., i finally update!
ahah!

so life has been good.
school as usual, sucks!
cos i just can't get up on time.
been skipping lesson, not turning up for school.
god! this sucks..

and talking bout skipping school,
here i am west coast park's McD.
school starts at 10. i wake up at 10.
act like im going to school.
then off i go to wcp.
i decided not to go school since its only 2hrs of lesson.
it will be such a waste to go for just 1hr or so.
so ya.

lesson has been good so far.
except for 3df and ideas. i think.
assignments will be a tough one i must say.
hopefully i can manage.
wish me luck!

ouh and i went to the show at rp last sunday.
'Kental Ah Lu Mat'
it was a great show. one of the best i've seen.
and its very entertaining and Funny.
ouh and i went the show with Naza btw.
haha. met her for the first time, months since we knew each other.
she's the one who ask me to accompany her to the show.
so ya. great time spend before the show.
the arcade, the frappe. haha.
so Sunday night wasn't disappointing.
though im like so sleepy and tired.
since it was a 'hell' weekend for me.

yes, a 'hell' weekend.
as usual, my Saturday always ended with me walking unsteadily,
with my head getting heavier, with my double vision,
with my eyes turning red and i feel like im floating.
its been 2 weekend straight i've been like this.
i won't go home on Saturday night.
a hangover and the morning i'm back at the club, working.
and for the first time i vomitted.
god!

hmm..alright then.
till here! bye peeps!

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8:42 PM
Monday, October 12, 2009


10 things man don't like about women
  1. QUESTIONS - A man hates when a woman starts asking questions about everything, they don't go to the point, they like to play around with questions, to see if they can get you to confess something you did, its often known as trick questions, and only a few man know their way out of a non-stop questionaire of a woman.
  2. TAKING FOREVER TO GET READY - Is there a thing a guy hates is waiting, guys have no patience what so ever, especially when is time to go out and a woman spends hours changing clothes and trying different stuff, a man hates when a woman takes time for every little action they take.
  3. EMOTIONAL SHOULDER - Men don't like when woman treat them as another girlfriend or talk about feelings with them, men dont like to be treated as emotional support.
  4. OPINIONS - Guys don't like when a women ask them for opinions especially when is girl related, examples are DO I LOOK FAT IN THIS? SHOULD I WEAR THIS ONE OR THIS ONE? and those are the most commons and most hated ask questions from women to men.
  5. SEX WEAPON - Men hate when a women uses sex as a weapon, when they want to get something out of the man, or use excuses to punish a man by not having sex, that is one of the most hated it things known to men.
  6. SHOPPING - Shopping with a girl has to be one of the worst punishments a guy could get, they simply cannot decide for anything, and they have to try every single piece to see if they like it, men do not have the patience for this and we including me know that 24 hours is not enough for a woman to go out and buy a pair of panties.
  7. TALKING - Women are natural talkers, they can spend hours and hours talking non-stop about the same thing, and men hate this, they simply cannot stand a woman go on and on and on about something, specially when they talk about themselves.
  8. CRITICISM - Men don’t like a woman criticizing or judging another woman, we think is unnecessary and treat other women as rivals or criticize other women’s clothes, shoes and pretty much anything they don't like on them.
  9. SILENT TREATMENT - This another most hated things from women known to men, the silent treatment is a stage a girl uses to not talk or even look at you while you try to talk or explain something to them, its like a man doesn't exist to them and it could go on for days.
  10. GOOD MEMORY - Is there one thing we men hate is the women’s good memory to bring back past mistakes we men made, they can remember the details and every time a discussion happens they bring it up to make you miserable and make you remember every mistake you have done in the past year.

Taken from syazwan's blog.
Some are really true.
Don't you think so?
Hmm..




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hoots..!

gosh..so many stuffs happened ever since Syawal came.
good and bad. happy and sad.
one of which is of course my breakup with gf.
it was 'suddenly' i must say.
still trying to patch up my so-called shattered heart.
wish me luck.
and to my good friends,
namely Aidil, Khairul, Sya and Fiq,
thank you very2 much for the support.
love you guys man.
hmm..i don't wanna drag about this.
let just say me and her are still in so-called close contact.
close friend? good friend? something like that.
right b?

so..moving on.
Selamat Hari Raya! lol.
this year's was okay.
i only went jalan raya for about 3, 4 days i think.
not much. not in the mood.
but i was home for about a week since raya.
then it was work work and work.

been busy working lately.
sorry to my all friends out there.
i make it up one day.
aite?
anyway, i start to love my job.
i'm getting closer with the work clan.
especially my abang pian.
i'll think about your offer aite.
everyone at work was fun.
okay maybe not all luh.
but overall its good.
oh and we spent our saturday's early morning playing soccer.
haha. it was fun.
there was about 20, 20+ caddies.
we played at jurong's fico sport hub.
my third time there.
but my first time playing soccer at 12am till about 4am.
cool aite. lol.
oh and i still have the touch.
after weeks without soccer, i think play pretty well.
yessa!

and after soccer went back to anjang's house.
had a chat with abang and taufiq.
then me and abang go to work.
so worn out afterwards.
a great saturday!

now i'm back at woodlands.
just for a day or two.
this coming weekend will be quite busy.
but i wanna spent this final week of holiday.. Working!
saving up money to go shopping.
:P

alrites! ciao!

P.S. i NEVER LIE



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6:09 AM
Sunday, September 20, 2009

oouh and Happy Birthday to me!

haha.

and also to my Shaffina, Syarif, Syafiq, Nabil, Farhanah(i think) and my beloved nephew, Danie Aniq!

happy birthday to all. best wishes from me to you all!
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oh hey!

i'm back. for the moment uh.
since its raya season.

many have been asking,
eh senyap je kau. maner kau menghilang?
haha.
well. i didn't go anywhere.
still in s'pore.
but on the west side.
been staying at grandma home at west coast for the past few weeks.
basically about 85% or more of ramadan.
at first i was busy sleeping day in day out.
nothing much to do.
then for the past 2 weeks, i've been busy making money.
hah.
i didn't really work everyday but on some day.
i'm starting to love my job.
though i have to work under the hot sun or in the heavy rain,
at the end of the day, it's worth it.
and don't be shock if i look kinda dark.
haha.
and one of the reason i wanted to work so much is b'cos of my father.
he's in a very tight budget for raya this year.
all thanks to the economic stuffs and that he's the only one working in the family.
and as the only son in the family that will carry his name,
i decided to work. for him.
i don't mind dying under the hot sun or getting drench running in and out for the sake of my father and my family.
as long as i could put on a smile on each and everyone face in the family. i'm happy.
so ya, been working for the last 2-3 days to help my father.
at least there's a good deed i could do before ramadan leaves us.

talking bout ramadan.
i did say i can't wait for ramadan a month ago.
as i wanted a change.
well guess what.
nothing changes. instead in get worse.
what's happening to me.
doing a big sin during the holy month.
masyallah.
ckp je lebih. hais.
words without action are nothing.
ya allah, maafkan lah hambamu ini.
ouh and there is this one day at work.
i sat with the so-called alim2 nye uncles.
they talk about islam and stuffs.
this uncle say,
"orang ckp diri mereka muslim tapi mereka tidak mengamalkan islam.
dulu nabi kiter solat 250 kali sehari. nk keje pon tk boleh. asyik beribadah saje.
skrg ni, kiter hanya perlu buat 5 kali je sehari. itupon maseh tk dpt dijalankn."
bak kekata, siapa yg makan cili, dier yg terasa pedas.
i sat beside them and think. he's true.
and im one of those people.
omg.
:(

anyway, its been a very hard time for me and her.
for me especially.
i did nothing but you think and said i'm doing this doing that.
just b'cos we're far apart.
i was really sad each time you called and accused me of doing stuffs that i didn't do at ALL again and again.
you are away to malaysia. all i want was to hear ur voice and have a nice chat with you on the phone when you call. but this is what i get everytime.
i really miss you. each night after i get myself cleaned after work, i would switch on my lappy just to look at ur pic. i really wish you would be there with me.
i really miss you. ur hugs ur kiss ur smile. everything.
all i need is you to be right there with me.
and i would hold you tight hoping you'll never leave me again.
i didn't mean to scold or curse you. i was just mad. this feeling sucks.
all i want now is you to come back. and we'll sort things out in person.
i really want you to change. for me. please.
and i'm sorry for all my wrongdoings. i'm really sorry b.
i love you and i really miss you.
:(

ok. lets put this thing aside for the moment.
packed this in package. sealed it. keep them inside. and put on smile on the outside.
i shall be the only one having to bear this sadness and pain.
no one else shall have a taste of this sadness.
and in return i would smile and let everyone else taste the happiness.
especially since its aidilfitri.

and here i would like to wish everyone,
(my family, friends, relatives, buddies and especially you, Nur Shaffina)
selamat hari raya aidilfitri. maaf zahir dan batin.
salah silap ke, terkasar bahasa, basically all the sin i had done to you all,
harap dapat dimaafkan. i'm sorry inside out.
iloveyouall.
have a wonderful syawal.
tc.
:)

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1:16 PM
Tuesday, September 01, 2009

hey

assignments and tests all done since last thursday.
with maths the final shit we need to go thru on that day.
the paper was doable but i didn't revise enough i guess.
hoping for the best.

so..spend most of my time sleeping lately.
i just find it so hard to get my ass of the bed.
planning to work as hell but i turn out sleeping as hell.
let just hope this week will be a much better and meaningful week.

yesterday was like the good old days.
back to mft with my soccer peeps.
it feels good to finally play the game i love most.
a great day yesterday.

its semester break.
and i just don't know what i'll be doing during this break.
get money? enjoy and just enjoy? hmm..
hopefully i could get myself to work and work.

anyway, last week had this talk with my uncle.
we didn't sleep that night so we talked.
about all those stuffs that get us all drunk and high.
you should know. those fluid, those pills.

omg.
i really miss getting the feeling again.
its wrong. its a sin. but still.
that's like the cure for me each time i am feeling down.

alright. ciao!

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8:36 AM
Friday, August 21, 2009

heyhey

with my team now.
finishing up our drawing assignment.
stress sia.
it is also very troublesome.
must do that do this.
i have yet to do my sketches for this assignment.
plus the sketches for the sketch bk.
fuck up liao.

ok2.
better do my work now.
ciao ciao lan ciao. lol.

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